Oh what a rollercoaster of a fortnight.
First I felt great that LA wasn't going to school, then the guilt got me, then I felt all happy again and now I'm back with the guilt. I know that pretty much describes parenting, but these last few weeks have been awful.
LA went back to nursery today (she has to go to childcare for 2 session a week, I have to work or the bills don't get paid) and she was really sad as all her friends have left to go to school. I had to make a sharp exit or I'd have stood and sobbed. Actually thinking about it, I was sadder than her - she was happy to see the staff. Still, she made it clear that she didn't want to go and if she sticks with that then I'm going to have to cancel my plans to go to uni this year.
I don't mind having to cancel them, she comes first - I just want it all to work out well.
I could cancel my course and she could just go to our childminders, who she adores. Unfortunately our childminder can't have her on the days that I need to be in Uni, so I can't just slide everything around.
I need to cancel my course soon if I'm going to do it and I won't know if she's going to be happy at nursery or not... hence the stress today.
1 comment:
Not being a parent I hesitate to offer advice, but don't you think she'll settle in to nursery.
I have a feeling Mom's being too hard on herself.
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