Synchronicity

My last few posts have been about timing, and how we were feeling the wobbles due to term starting.
However, LA has reassured us, in her own special way, that we have made the right decision. She has taken the "We are learning at home" to heart and has spent the last 48 hours relentlessly asking questions.
Yesterday started by wanting to know why things bent when she looked at them through a glass of water and went on in much the same way.
Today began with a question about pollution and how it could be prevented. This topic went on for some time and covered pollution in rivers, the sea, beach, cities and landfill. We then talked about deforestation and transport in cities.
We played some games, read some books, cooked some pancakes and went to the park.
LA then wanted a discussion on the human body, including what red blood cells did and how, the lungs, heart and the dreaded babies topic...
hehehehehe....

Feeling better

Despite the anxiety I'm currently feeling about LA not starting school, I have something that has made me feel so much better.
LA and I were in Borders today, browsing when I found a magazine aimed at Primary teachers. A quick peak at it suggested that Primary teachers didn't think school was the best place for 4 year olds either...intrigued, I parted with my hard earned cash and have spent an enlightening 30 minutes reading it.
Wow, so many teachers declaring that Reception class is not the best place for children, complaining about the extended school hours taking away children's free time, becoming angry with their more controlling colleagues who want to ban football in the playground, despairing at the governmental controls - EYFS, SATS etc etc etc...
So, here I am feeling better - yes anxious, but I'm sure that will pass. Just imagine how anxious I would be if LA was starting school tomorrow...

thinking...

This week LA should start school.
I'm not sure how either of us feels about that.
She doesn't appear to care other than being sad that she won't be able to play with her friends so much now. She hasn't expressed any desire to go to school for several months now and she seems happy with the idea that we will be learning at home and going to lots of fun places. We have a holiday at Butlins (no expense spared!!) at the end of September. I booked it so that she would have something to be excited about while all her friends were getting excited about starting school. It seems to have done the trick.
Personally, I feel this strange mixture of relief, excitement and sadness. I wasn't expecting the sadness. I feel sad that I'm preventing her from taking part in this rite of passage, like i'm depriving her of something that she'll regret later. Yet, I have no doubt that she'll do much better at home than she would at school. She doesn't even appear emotionally up to going to school, she's still very clingy and very much a mummys girl. I think a lot of this is coming from work, there are several parents there whose children are starting school this week and they chatter on about how excited little **** and **** are about it.
I guess time will tell...