Monday 15 September 2008

Happy Birthday James

Today, 19 years ago, I became a Mum.
It was the best thing I have ever done.

Happy Birthday James.

Wednesday 10 September 2008

All Change here for adulthood...

This week James and Kate have started college. They are both studying for National Diploma's (4 A level equivalents) at local colleges. Well Kate's isn't that local, its an hours bus journey away- but its studying animal management and as she wants to be an RSPCA inspector, it's the course she needs.
Also today James has finally got a job. HOORAY!!!
It fits in nicely with his studies and it sounds like fun. He's going to be working in a children's playhouse in a pub, running children's parties.

HOORAY!!

Thursday 4 September 2008

Up and Down again

Oh what a rollercoaster of a fortnight.
First I felt great that LA wasn't going to school, then the guilt got me, then I felt all happy again and now I'm back with the guilt. I know that pretty much describes parenting, but these last few weeks have been awful.
LA went back to nursery today (she has to go to childcare for 2 session a week, I have to work or the bills don't get paid) and she was really sad as all her friends have left to go to school. I had to make a sharp exit or I'd have stood and sobbed. Actually thinking about it, I was sadder than her - she was happy to see the staff. Still, she made it clear that she didn't want to go and if she sticks with that then I'm going to have to cancel my plans to go to uni this year.
I don't mind having to cancel them, she comes first - I just want it all to work out well.
I could cancel my course and she could just go to our childminders, who she adores. Unfortunately our childminder can't have her on the days that I need to be in Uni, so I can't just slide everything around.
I need to cancel my course soon if I'm going to do it and I won't know if she's going to be happy at nursery or not... hence the stress today.